||[Jun. 8th, 2008|07:01 pm]
i was reading a long time ago paramore post(the 1 where hayley asked fans what they were ashamed of that later resulted in "misery business") and it was pretty inspiring. it made me think of what im ashamed of. im ashamed of the fact that i try to impress people WAY 2 much and that i am extremely self conshus. and i can't spell(jk)! no but seriously there is also the fact that i don't EVER stand up for myself,i compare myself 2 others, im constantly telling my self how fat i am when im barely fat at all, and i let people take advantage of me. im also pretty disrespectful 2 my parents when they would give me the world if they could. i constantly want everything i see, i USED to take out my aggression on my dogs(not anymore), I've pretty much forgotten my christian religion, i judge every single person i see(you know you do too) even if I've never even seen them,i lie a lot, after someone does something for me i NEVER say thank you. im also ashamed of the fact that im ashamed of my family's looks, ashamed of my parents age, i could do better in school but i don't allow myself too, i make way to many excuses, i don't ask ?'s when i should and... i don't speak up for other people, i don't ever think of other people that are in way worse conditions, how i think there's never enough for me, also ashamed of the fact that i think its all about me, i feel like if i express my self people will laugh or make fun even though i really make fun of people and the way that they express themselves.